Drrroldd man and da sea.

This just a soliloqui. Me. to myself. a few facts.

vangogh took 28 years to understand that he didnt want to be a priest.

kant came up with his best work while in his fifties.

charles strickland was in his 40s, when he shun his life as a stockbroker.


Am jst 26. So, still have a few years to spare : ) ..cheers.

..the vast sea you know is staring ahead sweetheart. at least that's what an old man too reluctant to die as yet, understands.

And you walk on...

..notwithstanding how few people around you match the wavelength.



Now, that statement can be interpreted in a multizillion ways, based on the context it's used in..can be arrogance (which I never denied am not), the favourite excuse of a compulsive loner ( right again ), or confusion of a shameless narcissist (..now no comments).



But have not many choice either, if I happen to be what I am. I am not an ever-smiling friendly face in the office for example, and so people are happy keeping a safe distance. So am I having made my point clear. I was therefore a bit irritated, when a conversation started just by my desk on whether the custom of dowry is fine. Now, while on the way to solve a high severity bug, shameless battering at the next desk on whoz going to bag a crore can get quite obnoxious. Mind wanders, in a zigzag, from your computer screen to the social fabric of India two thousand years back, its metamorphosis into an urban 21st century optimistic emerging world power. Here I pause, listen to my projectmate, an educated urban 21st century indian engineer, actually trying to justify how dowry remains a proud custom that reminds him of his roots and also catch the grief in his voice for not having been born an upper cast...!

The first time I read 'India:a wounded civilization' by a young prolific V.S.Naipaul, I felt an outright repulsion towards a mind, that then seemed had been too harsh on a culture he never had opportunity to observe closely. But, I wonder now if I made a wrong judgement. So, yes, I now can comment on the third interpretation of the statement I began this with. That am not confused enough to state that I am confused.

So, better not confuse you further while I take a leave. Do think about it...

Age of reason

...err...the last two blogs seem quite depressing to my own eyes, not to mention you, who read it. But things have changed in a week. The change probably I was looking forward to in my last blog.

...saturday morn, with a sun smiling down at me, a morning cuppa coffee and swooooosshh....

am in the blogworld. trying to justify myself, a 25 year old havenotdoneanythingasyetinlife kinds chap, trying to understand with a rational mind where everything is falling apart.

I know the answer . yes, I do. As a kid I often used to wonder how people get damned inflexible trying to justify their own past self and that's the point they start falling down from the pinnacle..have observed this happen to many of my favourite sportstars, quite a few actors, who just came crumbling down trying to hold on to a 'formula' ...its easy to be an observer when you are not 'in' the system...but now i am ... plagued by the same...i know i can do much better not thinking about my achievements in the past...and let it flow as it comes...with an eye to future.

Yes. I have attained the age...

...of reason